Listening to the sky

No work again

I should be working at this time... how come i am still here typing by blog like nobody business? haha... I went down to work, but when my boss heard my voice, he asked me why are you here? Told me to go back home to rest... Give him a call after i get back my voice... Me think it will be some time my voice comes back... sickening... doctor said my vocal chords are damaged due to infection... My fault... should hv know better when i have a sorethroat... me refused to take lozenges when i just got a minor sorethroat... or u can call this a blessing in disguise... me need not go to work... HAHAHAH... but this means I will earn lesser...

so tired... shall go and rest first.. then i shall type some more...

~ reaching for the stars ~ Monday, Mar. 08, 2004, 2:52 PM

another entry...

vamp
You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.

"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."

Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).

The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.

Her sign is the eclipsed moon.

As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.

Which Mythological Form Are You?
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another entry by me... haha.. was discussing with minyu how our future is so unknown... like so many paths to choose from.. but do not know which is the best one... find the unknown so amazing... really.. i mean in the past u still can predict wat u r going to do... like in pri school, u know study hard will go into sec school... then in sec school, study will get u into jc... study hard in jc and can get into a uni...

but now.. everything is going to be so different... wat will become of you and ur friends... will u become successful, and wat will ur job will be?? Will ur social life be that good? i find it so wonderful yet scary... but still looking forward... hahaha

~ reaching for the stars ~ Sunday, Mar. 07, 2004, 8:11 PM

Proud...

just finish packing the computer area in my room... always hated the wires all over the place... how i wish that the new computers will hv fewer wires... like combine everything into one... so i would not waste time cleaning the dusty wires...

still hv to pack my table and clean my room.. which i will do it later... daniel smsed me just now... so shocked with his results.. i expected him to do well.. but he got A B B B and a C5 for gp... totally unexpected... he is a mugger, so sld hv gotten better results... dunno lah... me was expecting hardworking pp to get gd grades.. but it turned out to be slackers getting better grades... dun think these slackers are smart.. they just probably mug damn hard during the exams' break...

i guess i am a bit dizzy with happiness over my grades.. dunno lah... although i used to complain how life was horrible with studying.. but i am a bit proud of the fact that i hv accomplished quite alot in these 2 yrs... passed my piano, passed my A level... it is like so amazing...

now is the real crunch!! which uni and course sld i take... still cannot decide.. my father thinks ntu better in accountancy cos smu is a new uni... is smu new?? this one i not too sure.. then again i might not want to take up the course... arrgh.. so many choices, so many dilemas...

~ reaching for the stars ~ Sunday, Mar. 07, 2004, 7:26 PM

Happy for my results!!!

okay.. did not update my blog yesterday... cos the moment i went online, the chat traffic was so huge... so i spent the whole night chatting with them...

quite satisfied with my results... thought i would fail my GP... i nearly screamed out loud when hong da said that no one in our class failed GP...

amazement!!! my chem and econ scored above my expectations... though not very happy with physics... my fault lah... i really slacked for physics... and i screwed up for paper 2 cos i forgotten that it was with paper 1.. so only had 1 day to stab myself and giving up, thinking i will do better for paper 3...

at least i got A and B which i nv got in my entire JC life... really... so i am quite happy...

hope i am not making anyone angry who is reading this...

~ reaching for the stars ~ Saturday, Mar. 06, 2004, 12:24 PM

countdown to getting of results

arrghh.. another 14 hrs will the results come out... actually not that anxious... how i wish i no need to look at that result slip... hopefully everything turns out fine.. all i can ask for is that i can pass my A with good grades...

met berwine and chelsea during work (thursday)... they were going to hv dinner, so dropped by to see me... hahah... but did not talk much cos i was working...

~ reaching for the stars ~ Friday, Mar. 05, 2004, 12:20 AM

i hate this day... i swear...

i hate yesterday and today!!! REALLY!!! Forced to go for dinner cos the area manager, Lau, invited most of the people working in the area that he in charged... i really regreted going but that cannot be helped... hv to give the boss face... WAT RUBBISHH!! i guess i am starting to hate the working world... there is no freedom, boss invite u to dinner, u cannot even choose not to go... then i was a bit sick but still... i still hv to go... this is just so sickening!!!

wat made the dinner worse was probably my fault... guess i should hv just kept my mouth shut... i guess i do mind people teasing me... ESPECIALLY PP who like to tease me with another guy... IRRITATING GUY... he was the one that make me angry... actually i was not angry when he joked abt liking gals who wear spect, had bug bunny teeth... but i gave him that kind of angry look.. that made the whole staff on that table to think i was angry.. AND 1 thing i hate most... when pp really think i am angry when i am actually not.. i really get mad... it's like u r actually making me angry... so i lost my temper there... yes...u can say i really regret it, feeling guilty that i sld hv just shut my mouth or keep my cool...

when i went out to call my mother, i dropped a few tears, but i think my eyes was a bit puffy and they prob cld guess i cried when i came back to the table... then after the whole dinner, i asked alice if i was rude at that time, she comforted me by saying that sometimes i hv to let pp know that i cannot stand this kind of teasing... so i felt better...

but on the way home, still dropped a few tears.. then went back home to cry somemore... sounds like a crybaby right... i guess i am those people that need to cry to vent my frustrations... probably because it has been a long time that i hv not cry... a few months...

maybe i am feeling quite scare of meeting those pp tml... how i malu myself... or wat... but i hope this is not affecting me, cos i feel like quitting... then again.. i think i won't...

actually seeing these people.. i really wonder why they enjoyed talking dirty??? i mean they got nothing intellectual to talk about.. this really makes me want to go for better jobs, higher pay, meeting better people... i really cannot stand their corrupted minds.... muz keep my cool... ren ren ren...

~ reaching for the stars ~ Wednesday, Mar. 03, 2004, 12:54 AM

I guessed correctly... today was indeed a very very very busy day

TOday was indeed a busy day, my sixth sense was true... worked full shift... then morning everything as usual... do counter work... at abt 1.45 was called into the store room with all the other temp staff... our manager, matthew, wanted to tell us wat he expected of us... he said maybe it was his fault that he did not give us a briefing... so he warned us many things like punctuality is impt... cos the other temp staff were late at some times... than said he fired staff who are late... yah.. then all those stressful briefing... say if we cannot cope tell him, that he will let us quit cos he thinks we are suited for this kind of job... then he told us last time temp staff paid at 9 dollars per hr... THIS IS SO UNFAIR!!! why my batch become 7... reason is because the heads thought that the temp staff were not doing much so reduced to 7... ARRGHH!!!

After the briefing, went to lunch with valerie(another temp staff), Matthew, Cynthia.. then on the way met this motorola promoter.. so together eating lunch loh... the rest of them smoke except for me and the motorola guy... hahah... very stressed, cannot gossip with valerie.. i mean both of ur bosses are there.. hahah.... hey working as phones promoter very good money... $9 an hr... maybe i sld do it in weekends when i am in uni, can earn extra money...

then went back.. thought it would be another busy day.. just worked for 10 min.. matthew asked me to pack bag and go tampines to help out cos they do not have enough manpower... me was like.. huh??? so ok, took a taxi to tampines mall, haha, transportation fee not i pay... oh, while on the way out of parkway parade building met weijun, she is working for HSBC.. i think it is those weekend promoter thingy... cos she not working there long term... only on weekend... so just say hello, then shoot off to taxi stand...

on the way to tampines mall, kept thinking it was going to be another slow and boring day... was telling myself it must be another day of standing and running about... who knows when i get there, i met the HEAD MANAGER.. pp call him LAU, very the big card, i scare of him too... so he just told the shop manager and the staff to open a counter for me... so i ended up doing counter work from 3.45 to 9.30... no breaks... at least not too bad.. but got a headache... the crowd there is HORRENDOUS... really... so scary... the quene was like a snake that turns so many times.. luckily not so intimidating cos i can't see the quene from my counter... but really so stressful... is really mad.... anyway i hv an off day tml... HURRAY!!!

~ reaching for the stars ~ Sunday, Feb. 29, 2004, 11:59 PM

A tiring Saturday

another busy siaz day... after i met up with minyu, my day went thru very fast.. though i hv a feeling tml i will hv a very busy and boring day.. ARRGHHHHH!!!!

Cannot stay the staff there... WAH SEH!!! Wonder how much dirty stuff i hv heard there, really dun want to hear evil... these pp so dirty minded... the ladies so crude except for 2 and the guys also loh... luckily they speak hokkien most of the time and i dun understand... really.. this is a blessing in disguise...

then there is this temp staff who got his O levels result.. he so proud of it.. 28 pts for six subjects.. all the staff laughed at his score or give that "wat a lousy score look"... feel bad for him... also feel guilty... yah i do look down on his score... then i think he disappointed that we all looked down on his score... wanted to tell him not to feel bad... but he left earlier...

hahah... something to cheer me up.. though i still do not feel excited... This month of feb, i prob earn more than a thousand (combined from M1 and piano teaching)... this is wat i hv estimated... 900 for M1 and i receive a cheque for piano today which is 357... quite good right... Am I really slogging damn hard?

~ reaching for the stars ~ Saturday, Feb. 28, 2004, 11:59 PM

Just feel like blogging

sigh.. cheating on my blog time again...

me hving this mad craze on jap food... trying to make sushi (guess i read too much on the sushi comics)... hey my first sushi turn out quite okay... just that it was in a weird shape... but it tasted nice too... just finished my instant ramen too... yum yum... though i feel it was just another instant noodles... maybe sld not hv cook it too long, the noodles lost the bouciness... HAHAA

yesterday, thursday was my off day... spent $40 buying a "how to draw manga book"... ahhh i am being cheated... cos i bought book 2, and that book is not teaching me anything... guess i sld hv been more patient in waiting for book 1 ( no stock at that time )... cos that was the more impt book... teaches u how to draw the characters... Waste my $$$... sigh... nvm... actually did not really regret that much lah...

me so tired now... still hv to wash pot and bowl... now time is 1.40 AM... better go zzz... tml muz get up to make sushi rolls...

~ reaching for the stars ~ Friday, Feb. 27, 2004, 11:59 PM

Written for yesterday

Did not update my blog yesterday.... cos my stupid dad was complaining how much time i am wasting using the net... he disapproves me of using the net often, and he also does not like to see me chatting on the net... my dad is really so arrgh... hey i do hv a social circle outside, i am chatting with my friends and not to outsiders... he was the one that taught me not to forget my friends... now i seldom meet my friends so chatting is a way of communicating with them... yah... make me do not hv the mood to blog or to chat yesterday..

actually my blog was not meant for complaining... haha... yesterday there was another temp staff that joined us again... so total there is 4 temp staff including me.... yah u can say i am promoted, cos i am learning more things.. YEAH!!! checking of forms...tat is a serious thing... cos if i dun check properly, the form-checker and the one who did the form will be in trouble... so the other temp staff do vacuuming, me doing wat perm staff are doing... hahaha... maybe i sld just go full time... but then again, i prefer to be a temp staff, the uniform much better... hahahah... though i feel guilty in not helping them doing housekeeping.. cos i know how it is like to be the only one vacuuming while the rest are doing more impt thing...

the new temp staff that joined us yesterday was a 24 yrs old... so i wonder how he feels when he sees a 18 yrs old doing things that he is not doing... cos there is also another perm staff who is same age as him... then again he probably went into the army and lost 2 yrs of his life... haiyz.. me shall hope everything is fine... lah lah lah

~ reaching for the stars ~ Wednesday, Feb. 25, 2004, 11:30 AM